darn it.
i do not have the luxury of time to go gaga over the World Cup, so i most definitely wun bother spending hours to watch some insignificant guys kick balls.
but the most anticipated match ever, for me at least, and i just had to miss it. WHY.? because they had to watch some crap, and the other tv's dead. simply perfect.
i too, do not need that look from you.
i was so blardy pissed, please.
so pissed. urgh.*
the word 'compromise' is alien here.
stressed out.? exhausted.? and so.?
u're still expected to smile, even if u feel like jumping off the 12th floor.
was blissful den, a facade i can put up everyday, effortlessly conforming.
that's when life's all easy.
but JC is all about being stressed out.
all about being exhausted.
so ur way out.? avoid.
precisely why i'd rather just cage myself in this room.
i dun haf to fake a smile.
i'll come out wen im naturally on ALL SMILES.
pathetic, yes i noe. well wat can i say.
and no noo. drained all the time.?
FB's definitely NOT the primary cause.
its the massive workload, u noe. the intellectual craps that practically squeeze every drop of ur brain juices leaving nothing to nourish it but oxygen from the external environment.? yes.
and FB is the answer to my oxygen-deprived-brain.!
sick. was suppose to be home resting.
but no. i killed myself by gg for trg.
yet somehow, i feel wayyy better now.
you see. i luv floorball.
i dun want it, i need it. hee. =)
okay. i've gone farrr off track. my only intention of blogging now is to note down how pissed i am. but look where i've blabbered to. sheesh.
kay. whatever it is. darling sources have updated me. my beloved goalie-cum-captain led SPAIN to 4-0 victory. yes, im euphoric.! (a word i learnt frm dear yvonne. hah.!)
i still hate myself for missing the match though. urgh.*
do not read the next para. im being paranoid by fixing a timeframe for tmr's activity. its full of prayers (sheer joy.) and muggings (erPs.). though im not exactly a scheduled kind of person. ouwh well.
i shall now mug for bio till 5am. den i'll haf my sahur and do my prayers and get half a day worth of rest, starting from 6am. i shall wake up at 1pm, indulge in a long shower, do my prayers, and resume wif chem at 2pm. break in between is a norm, but depriving myself frm food ought to help. i shall end the session at 6.30pm, do my prayers, prepare my food, and break my fast at around 7+pm. followed by my prayers again, den i'll waste some time relaxing. and eventually lay my hands on this comp at 8.30pm.! i shall complete my Chem MLG assignments. den i'll pray for the last time tmr, before i head for bed at a time i've yet to decide. hee. =)
i foresee my weekends being burnt for family-related-activities. thus logically.
i haf ONE WEEK for revisions.
forget it lah muni, u're dead hopeless.
woi. haf faith. every single effort counts. hee.
now. go study. go study. go study. haiz.~